The holidays came and went - the holidays themselves went pretty well, thankfully. But man, the rest of the days have been sort of tough for me. I got triggered pretty strongly a couple days before Christmas. :( I went to Walmart to get the kids their gifts for each other and a few more other gifts and my card declined. I ended up finding out that the oil company apparently thought Justin meant give us 250 GALLONS of oil when he said we could only afford $250 DOLLARS worth of oil. So they charged our bank us almost $600. Our account was in the negatives.
Now we have to ask to pay rent late which we've never had to do since we've been living here. I feel terrible about it.
I was having a lot of flash backs of holding Bennett this past week too, him being here with us, unwrapping presents and having time with him.
It's been a tough week holidays aside. I'm not 100% sure as to why... other than missing Bennett and getting slammed financially. But I know we will get back on track financially, it'll all work out.
Back in September I closed Bennett's adoption so I've been struggling with that as well to be honest. I'm doing my best coping through the grief and I'm doing alright, it's just really rough to experience still and to sit with.