Trying to organize life.

I've been feeling pretty emotional lately.. a lot of things have been triggering me and I've been getting set off. I hate it. I really do. I know that my triggers are due to unresolved and leftover issues from my childhood but I don't yet know how to work on that to be better for myself and my family. I have started to read a book called Parenting from the Inside Out and I am hoping that it will be able to help me.
I'm currently on a new medication called Pristiq and I feel like it finally is helping my depression.. I don't feel super suicidal or depressed anymore and so far no bad side effects. Sometimes I feel a little more sleepy but it isn't half as bad as it was when I was on Effexor. My sister is currently starting on Effexor and that worries me because I don't want her to go through what I did on that medication. I know it is different for everybody but it was so terrible for me that I worry for her.
Living in the new apartment has been wonderful.. although, it doesn't feel like home yet. It's still messy and unorganized, we have nothing really set up yet. Tomorrow I want to go to different stores to get things we need so that we can hang pictures and paint furniture and such. I feel like setting it up by doing those things will help make it feel more homey. A couple rugs might also help.
I also want to make a big erase board with a calendar of sorts with each day labeled on the top of it and the times going down it. On this board I want to create our daily schedule. I feel like this will help me the most and by helping me, it would help my family overall. I am starting to feel I need that schedule to help me keep accountability on myself instead of getting lazy, laying in bed, and playing on my cell phone. I want to start doing more hands on things with my children and playing with them. I know what I WANT to do - but doing it doesn't feel as easy... my emotions take over and I feel stuck. I am going to work on that.
Not much else to talk about at the moment.. I am going to get Noel asleep then watch The Walking Dead with Justin... Hopefully I can also get some more crocheting done too... I've been slacking since I haven't been up for much of anything lately.. I guess I still feel a bit depressed, the negative thoughts just aren't there.
I'll report back when I get the opportunity to. Goodnight.