Heavy situations.

A few things have happened that are quite heavy this past week. Around last Friday a situation happened where someone had screenshotted a status I made on fb about my mom ignoring Justin and Noel at the grocery store. My mom, being the immature narc she is, ended up messaging one of my fb friends who had commented on my post. My fb friend let me know that my mom said I had cut contact with her because Justin and are abusive. Yeah, we are the abusive ones. -.- The next day Moe also messaged my fb friend talking shit about me.

I had originally thought that only my dad and my cousins ex gf Isabella still had contact with my mom. So I asked Isabella who told me it wasn't her because she no longer sees any of them since breaking up with my cousin Mikey. So I had believed it was my dad and so I deleted him off my fb, blocked him, and didn't answer his calls for a few days. He then came over my house on Saturday night telling me it wasn't him and he was upset that I had deleted him. I told him Moe told me it was him. I really don't know,  I lied in attempt to find out his reaction to that to see if he was being truthful to me. He said he no longer even wants to talk to them after they would go out of their way to message my friends. He then asked to go with us the next day to a fall festival, which we went to and it was a lot of fun. 

I also realized afterwards that it could have been my moms friend from poker Anne-Marie. It was most likely her. But now my dad knows I am serious and that I won't tolerate any bullshit when it comes to my mom and her side of the family. 

In other news, today Scott, Lailah's dad sent me a ss from my mom where she made a fb post saying that 3 blood tests say she is pregnant... God,  I sure hope not. If she truly is I am hoping it's a tubal pregnancy - ectopic. Because she honestly would fuck another baby up too. That poor baby would have no chance. She doesn't even have anywhere to put another baby. My brother sleeps on the couch, my sister lives in the basement which floods constantly... and 3 step brothers share a bedroom. Honestly, nowhere for a baby. A baby deserves so so much better than a family like hers. I feel so sad for another life to be born to them. 

It's ironic too that 1. I haven't talked to her since April and she's supposedly having another baby after "losing" her oldest. And that 2. I have been considering trying for another baby soon and then she's supposedly pregnant. I'm not sure if I believe it but I feel sad if she is, only for the sake of another human being raised in the same world I was raised in with her. 

I think I am going to call maybe tomorrow to make an appt to have my Implanon removed to start TTC for next Summer. :) We will see.