My last post was nearly a month ago.
I've lost all interest doing many things that I have previously enjoyed doing. I am still on my medication so I am sure that it's not that. I don't have suicidal thoughts torturing me so it's not that bad. But I just have lost my drive to want to do much. I even missed the fall festival that I love to go to each year. I have not wanted to leave my bed, I have been sleeping as much as I can, and I don't leave the house. I've been easily agitated, frustrated, I don't want to be touched, I don't want to talk to friends or anyone really. I was wondering the other day why, why is this happening? What is wrong with me? And then it dawned on me that 6 years ago around this time is when I was raped and made to conceive Bennett. Apparently, my body remembers even though I consciously do not. I remember this happening last year too but I had forgotten until I had just remembered recently due to experiencing it again. I don't know. I am just going to wait it out and I am sure that things will improve again with time.
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