Journal of positivity - day 1

This is part experiment, part vow. Everything that is to go in here MUST be positive. Even if my thoughts aren't at the time. I will make them.

This morning Mark and I brought Lailah out for breakfast. I am blessed to have them both in my life. They both have provided me with so much love and opportunity to grow and create a beautiful future. At breakfast Lailah played just about every game on my phone. She is so beautiful and smart. She's made it a routine to always try to blow her straw wrapper at Mark. lol She makes me so happy. I love her more than anyone could ever imagine possible and I guess that's what it's like to be a mother of such a beautiful little girl.

Then we ate our breakfast. I had my usual 222 and Lai had her usual of homefries, some of my French toast (she called them pancakes, idk why lol) and bacon. She is my life.

Then Mark and I brought her back to her grandparents, John and Melanie's. She held me so tight, hugging me. She misses me. One day we will have a home together and not have to be apart for so long anymore.

Then Mark and I went to work, we also got this new journal and a planner for me. I will become more organized. I will get my life together. I was blessed to have met my boyfriend last December. He means so much to me. I'm extremely lucky to have him. He has been there for me through so much and I'm really grateful. He's brought so much light to my life and although it's stressful I couldn't ask for more. He's provided a lot of opportunities for me and has and is continuing to help me grow as a person every single day. Not a day goes by where he isn't kissing me and telling me how much he loves me.
It's amazing.
I will start showing him how important he is to me. How much I love him too.
We now have this thing where I say, "I love you."
He says, "I love you too."
I say, "I love you more."
He says, "I love you most."
It's adorable.

Anyways, :) Lailah just called me as Mark and I were leaving work. She was giggling uncontrollably. I couldn't help but be happy knowing that she is mine. This beautiful blessing was born from myself. I couldn't help but laugh along. She asked me what I was doing. I replied that I was leaving work. She asked if I was with Mark and if he was near me. I replied, yes he is. She laughed and laughed, saying hat she was laughing at Mark. Saying that he is so funny and that I also am funny. How a 3 year olds mind works I don't know exactly but I'm happy it works as it does because there is nothing I'd rather hear than her laughter.
I never knew before what being a mother could bring. Now though, I wouldn't change it for a thing.
Tomorrow Lailah and I have a park date and probably some lunch. I'm happy and excited.