Saturday, November 15, 2014

Small update on life.

Things have been rough lately. I've been in and out of depression. I keep trying my hardest to not allow myself to fall into that pit of despair but it happens anyway. I want to be strong but some days I just don't know how. The feelings overwhelm me and I just don't know what to do. How can I release the emotion and pain in a healthy way before I blow up and can't handle it anymore?
Right now the biggest issue is that we are struggling so bad financially. Justin has been applying to different jobs - he has an interview on Monday at a call center type job, I hope it pays well and I hope he gets hired... that would help us out tremendously.
So, I've run into an issue with school. Apparently, financial aid won't cover the full years of schooling that is required in order for me to get a job after graduating. I NEED my masters in the field of Psychology... but financial aid will only cover MAYBE up to my bachelors. I looked at other career options at the school but the only one I'm even remotely interested in is Criminal Justice which I'm completely unsure if I want to do that at all. Also, I was told that financial aid will only cover night classes.. if I take night classes then I will just about never see Lailah and I don't believe I can handle that.
I think I should just do like my dad said and get a full time job along with Justin and just get our own apartment - maybe Tom will move here to move in with us and that could help us out. Who knows..
Idk anymore... I just don't know.

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