Life wasn't made for people like me.

I don't know what to do. I feel like this is always what I have to say - I have no fucking clue what to do or where to go or how to get by in life.
How do we even remotely try to rent a place or buy our own home without a good income and how do we get a good income to be able to do that?!
I apparently can't go to school.... so out goes the possibility of a decent income for me.
Justin may be able to get a job with my dads friend John as an apprentice plasterer at the beginning of next year but that is still up in the air and it would start at around 10$ hr my dad said but that's still not enough to really live off of.
If only we could get a home then I could potentially open up a home daycare and then we would have things taken care of. But how can we do that without having an income first?
I feel like I'm drowning under water and that we will never be able to get on our feet.

I would work at the webcam modeling like I had started but I have "no one" to watch Noel. And I put it like that because technically I have my mom but I don't trust her anymore. I had brought Noel over there and she left him for an hour; in the highchair; in the kitchen, alone, to cry until he fell asleep. No way. I would rather be in poverty than to put my sons psychological health in harms way. My friend Sara offered to watch him for me but then I attempted to work and she was calling and messaging me not even an hour later asking me to go get him because he was crying and wouldn't stop. So that isn't even a possibility.
Justin is currently working for UPS but it's only a temp seasonal position.

Idk, I feel like giving up most days. I feel like life is impossible. I'm poor and broke - life wasn't made for people like me. I can't even sell crochet stuff without jumping through hoops to get licensed and everything.. you need to be able to spend money to attempt to make any money.. how do you do that if you don't have money to begin with?