Doing alright

I'm doing alright but about a week ago or so my gramma had a heart attack and had to have a double bypass surgery, then she ended up having a stroke, and it was one thing after another from there. She's apparently, according to my mom, started going blind and unable to see well at all, she's stopped feeling when she has to use the bathroom so she just goes before realizing it... and she has an internal bleed somewhere and so far they can't find it so they've had her swallow a camera to try to find where it is so they can fix it. On top of all of that Don, her ex bf of like 15 years, passed away. I feel pretty bad for her, she's going through some shit right now. I'm really worried about her and scared of losing her, I love her so much, and I just started feeling close to her again. I don't want to lose her again when I'm just getting her "back".
Otherwise, surprisingly, I'm doing alright. This med I'm on really is helping I think. I've been staying ontop of keeping my house clean and also working diligently on my parenting with Noel and Lailah. I've been trying to figure out ways to work with them and also create more of an expected environment. For example: I've started locking up toys, in order to take another toy or activity out the one they had has to go back away. This helps both my kids because they do best when they fully know what to expect.
I've been smoking a lot of weed though too lately, which impo also really helps me get up and live each day, as well as helps give me insight into my parenting and how to better work with my kids. I worry a little about it but I'll do what I have to do to survive and get through this the best I can and right now, that's the best I feel I can. It helps me. It literally helps enhance my life and keep me calm and able to think about and work out situations I'm dealing with or going through.