Tuesday, October 21, 2014

The world sucks.

You know how they say, "The whole world isn't out to get you." and "Not everyone is against you."
Sure, I guess you could say those are "true" in a sense. But I don't see many on my side or helping me either. My dad "helps" me by giving us a place to live - which he feels obligated to do since he's my father. And Justin seems to be the only one really "on" my side at all.
No matter where I look or turn - there's people or things in my way, out to get me, and against me. Life isn't just a stroll through the park. There are people and things attacking me in multiple directions. It's exhausting.
Seriously, it's everything.
Money is a huge one - obviously. The people who insult and attack anyone who needs government help. The negative things said to those who need the help. Like me. The way people look down on the "poor". And obviously after people the fact that things stand in our way. We can't afford a roof over our heads. We can't afford clothes on our backs. We can't afford the things we need in order to get a good paying job. We can't afford the schooling for education. All these things and people against us and "out to get" us. In the sense that they insult, attack, and have no support or even understanding.
Then there's body image. You have to look the part to be taken serious at all in life. And beyond popular belief being "overweight" or "too big" are not the only ones to be discriminated against, shamed, or humiliated. For me, I am "too small", "too thin", "too tiny". I am told to eat a cheeseburger, to stuff my face, to put meat on my bones. I am told I am disgusting, I'm frail, I'm weak, and that I must have some eating disorder.
My whole life growing up I was "skin and bones". Once I became a teen I was made fun of for my chest. I had "bee stings" and "ant bites" for breasts. My mom specifically used to say those to me.

I just hate all of it. I hate that nobody stands together. Nobody is supportive or kind. When you really think about it - the whole world really is against one another and they really are out to get one another. Sure, not targeted towards one specific person - the whole word doesn't know just ONE person. But it still feels the same way.

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