I will NEVER allow her back into our lives AGAIN

I can't even fucking believe my mom.
Actually, scratch that... I can. I can't believe I honestly thought she could change. She will never be a good person. She will never be a trustworthy person. She will never be an honest person. She will not ever love or care about me because she is not capable of love or caring. Every person that believes she loves or cares about them she uses and manipulates them to do things for her. My brother watches her daycare for her so that she can get paid without doing the work, my sister also watches her daycare for her and pays her, etc. Nobody means more to her than what they have to offer to her and if they don't have anything to offer they're meaningless to her and she couldn't care less about them. And she will spite them.
Justin went to go pick up the kids from my moms today and my mom walked in as Justin was trying to get them ready to leave. Noel was tantruming and Lailah was bugging him over and over "can I call my mom, can I call my mom, can I call my mom, justttinnn let me call my mom!" So Justin got overwhelmed as many people do in that type of situation and said firmly, "No Lailah, we are going home. Mommy sent me to come pick you up and that's what I'm going. We are going home." and my mom laid into him hard yelling at him psycho fucking crazy! She was calling him abusive and saying that Lailah doesn't want to go home with him because he always makes her cry etc. Lailah was in the background saying that he doesn't make her cry and she doesn't know what she's talking about and Justin also was saying he didn't know what she was talking about. My mom just kept attacking Justin, laying into him hard, screaming! Justin got the kids told Justin to have me call her. So I called her and she just kept screaming and yelling about Justin and that he's abusive and all this shit. I was like - I don't exactly know what you want me to do?.... She just kept screaming and repeating herself. I said, "This is pretty hard for me to process since dad beat me growing up and that was perfectly acceptable but the moment my husband raises his voice or talks firmly it's a problem..." She flew off the handle threatening me and screaming at me before hanging up on me. She then called back and I forwarded it. I listened to it later and she said in the message that she's "done" with me and my family and that she's cancelling our cell phones (which she's already turned off) and she's cancelling my car insurance and that she's out to hurt me. So I reacted similarly, which in retrospect I shouldn't have, but I was angry... and I messaged her calling her a 2 year old and saying that I was going to contact her daycare parents and let them know how abusive she is to their children. My brother then messaged me threatening me and I blocked him. He tried saying that I "abandoned" Lailah when she was a baby... which I didn't - my MOM threw me out!

I really hate my mom. I hate who she is as a person, as a human being. I truly feel like I don't want anything to do with her for the rest of my life. She's never been a good person. She's never been truly supportive. She only cared about me when it was convenient to her, when I was a pawn in her game that she could manipulate and control.
I'll never be in her game again. I will never be a piece she can control. I will never allow her back into our life to ruin us ever again.

From this day forward I will never have a mom again. My mom is dead. I only have a woman that birthed me and attempted to destroy me. But I am rising and she will never be apart of this life my husband and I are growing together.