Evolving.

I've been feeling sort of sad lately. So many flashbacks, memories, the past eating me alive. It seems to taunt me - bringing me down.
I know I have the strength not to let it and to keep moving forward - but when it hits hard, I just feel so entirely out of energy. So drained that I forget that I don't have to feel those ways and that none of it is true.
I am not happy with my past but I can be happy with my future. If I don't move forward I will never find my happiness, it will never be created. Now, that's not the same as being happy in the moment - I do feel happy the majority of the time - but that doesn't mean I'm happy with where I am in my life at the moment. It just means I'm happy with who I am.
Over the past few years I've become this person I never believed I would be. Stronger. More independant. Happier. More at peace. More understanding. Not as reactive.
If you knew me 5 years ago - even 2 years ago - you would see a completely different person in me. I have come a long way. I've been working on myself, slowly reprogramming my mind and who I am from who I used to be into who I am still becoming. I'm not perfect but I'm much better than who I was.