I'm not sure what's going on right now

I don't really know what is going on in my life.
I attended butler partial program again for my depression, PTSD, and anxiety. I apparently scored high for OCD as well.
My cousin, April, moved in recently - like 3 days ago, too. Not sure how that will go yet. So far it's up in the air... both of us have a lot of adjusting to do.
I've been smoking a ton of bud at night to deal with the days.
Good news is though, that I haven't yelled in 4 days.

I've been working really hard on my own self control, on my parenting, I've deleted FB, and only scroll Instagram (so much more positivity!), and I'm trying to claim my life back.
I even cleaned my house, organized, got rid of toys, went through the winter stuff and swapped it for the summer stuff - for the past 3 days!
I feel proud of myself but under that I still feel quite sad sometimes.

I am not sure why I still feel so sad, I'm sure it's related to grief or something, because otherwise I am quite alright. I am doing ok...
Maybe that fact that we don't have much money is also weighing me down emotionally.

I applied for disability and I was supposed to have a phone interview tomorrow but I missed the calls because I had fallen asleep, I was exhausted. Hopefully Monday I can reschedule and it won't look too badly on me. Then again, I do have anxiety and such and typically avoid the phone like the plague.

Idk, I'm doing the best I can to get through this and just keep moving forward.