I'm progressing

I've had a tough past few days. Sunday was a
blast - I went to Purgatory with April, my friend Jordan, and Justin. We had a lot of fun and I really enjoyed myself. I hope to go back again soon with them all, maybe even Kevin next time.
But then on Tuesday I ended up having Liz call me and I told her everything that led up to the adoption. I might have fucked up with that, but I can't go back and change it. I was feeling pretty unstable and I didn't have anyone earlier in the day to help me reflect on my thoughts or emotions and then I just reacted... I texted Liz. Then I talked to Mandi, my cousin, and she helped me sort out what to talk about a bit. I also got some crying out.
Then The last 3 days after that I've felt so unstable emotionally. I am all over the place. It feels like it's so hard to control emotion, they feel so strong and overwhelming.
But I'm proud of myself because I haven't self harmed yet, I've called the suicide hotline number when I felt I needed it, I haven't harmed my kids or my husband or the puppies, I haven't been damaging, I haven't thrown things or slammed anything, and I've come a really long way from the place I used to let myself get to when emotion felt too overwhelming and strong.
I'm progressing. Not at the speed others want of me, or expect of me, but progressing none the less.
I'm doing a badass job.