Baby isn't ready but I'm happy

39w3d now and still pregnant. I'm trying to tell myself that he or she just isn't ready yet. I read a few articles, studies really - done by University of Texas Southwestern Medical Center at Dallas - that:

" A protein released from the lungs of a developing mouse fetus initiates a cascade of chemical events leading to the mother's initiation of labor."

" The initiation of term labor is carefully timed to begin only after the embryo is sufficiently mature to survive outside the womb."

" In their study, UT Southwestern researchers found evidence that a substance secreted by the lungs of a developing fetus contains the key signal that initiates labor. The substance, called surfactant, is essential for normal breathing outside the womb."

UT Southerwestern study

It was quite interesting. So I'm trying to convince myself that baby just may not be completely ready yet. But I am definitely welcoming labor at any time it would like to begin.
Even though I've got a cold. A stupid runny nose, sore throat, and cough. But the way I see it is - better breastmilk for my baby. My body is fighting this cold off and producing antibodies that I could transfer to baby.

In other news, Liz texted me back today. She said she will be sending Lailah and I's presents out on Monday and then to text her when I receive them so that we can set up a time and date to Facetime. I hope I either have the baby before this or that I don't go into labor when we are supposed to Facetime, that would make me feel pretty sad. She didn't send any pictures though which sort of made me a bit disappointed since I only seen one picture on my birthday last month and haven't received more photos since - I think it was the 9th of last month.
Anyways - I am looking forward to seeing Bennett and watching them open the hats I've crocheted them.

Justin and I took Lailah to see the movie Frozen today it was a super cute movie. Lailah liked it, even though she asked to leave a few times. She's definitely not used to sitting still for that long - ever. She rarely watches a movie straight through, even at home.

I also want to mention that one of my firstmom friends Roni sent Lailah a package for Christmas Eve. She already told me that it has a Christmas nightgown with a movie and some snacks for her to have Christmas Eve night. :) I am so thankful to have her. She's also sent me some things to help out with baby. I love her !
Another firstmom, who I actually barely know, also sent me a package FULL of things for baby. It was amazing. She sent blankets, burp towels, bath supplies, onesies,  diaper bag, a wipe case, a bunch of things, even a stuffed animal giraffe. She is so sweet and I can't thank her enough.
Firstmoms are the most wonderful people I've ever met. They're the most caring, understanding, and compassionate people I feel the world has ever had. And it's heartbreaking to know what they've all gone through, been through. That I've also been through. We lost our babies because we were too caring, too compassionate, too loving. That's how I see it. Although, at the same time I'm thankful for the qualities in myself and in them - because although it was once our weakness, it's now what helps others to keep their babies and it's what helps hold us all up and together.
I'm not happy for what I've been through - losing my son to adoption. But I am happy that I've gotten to meet the wonderful people that I know today and be surrounded by the love and support of the greatest women I've ever met.