Yesterday was Christmas. It was alright. Not so bad afterall. I watched Lailah open her presents and she really loved her dollhouse!! I was so happy she did. She's actually playing with it right now. :) Noel is lying on my lap on his boppy and he's content. :)
The only thing that bothered me about yesterday was that Justin was going to go to his dads house around noon and stay there all day til 7 or 8. And on Christmas Eve he worked til 4pm so I didn't see him all morning/noon. So I was pretty hurt that I wouldn't be seeing him on Christmas either.
I didn't really want to go to his dads house because I know that they got presents for Justin and Noel and not for Lailah or myself. Now, I don't care about the idea that they didn't get anything for me at all. What did bother me was knowing they got gifts for Noel and not Lailah, yet they wanted me to bring Noel over. Idk what they expected I'd do with Lailah. Leave her at home perhaps? I am working hard at making Lailah not feel left out due to her new baby brother. I want her to feel involved and still remembered, not forgotten. I don't want her to feel that her brother stole all her attention or gets more love and care than she does. For the past week she's even slept in her own bed all night without crawling into mine and that's huge for her !
Anyways, I used the excuse that she has head lice - which unfortunately she does. And he didn't end up going anyhow. They really just wanted to see Noel - but that's not an option since I Exclusively BreastFeed (EBF). We don't have bottles or anything like that and I don't even pump milk.
On Christmas Eve I went to my grandmothers Christmas party which she holds every year and it's also her birthday. I didn't mind going but a few things bothered me quite a bit while I was there. First my Aunt Bev asked me if I circumcised Noel and I told her no. So she said, "You're going to though, right?" And I was like, "Nope." And she had this look of offense on her face and she just turned the other way and stopped asking questions. - Really? My other aunt did the same thing a few days beforehand and then she spat back, "It's cleaner!". What is their interest in my childs private parts and what I as his mother have chosen to do or in this case NOT to do to it?! What is it their business at all?
Next - Lailah was bouncing on my grandmothers exercise ball. It was a big ball, up to about Lailah's belly button or so. So she was lying on it and bouncing on it. She was wearing a long dress with tights so you couldn't see anything from the backside. She was facing the majority of the people in the room though. So she's bouncing and talking to my grandmother about whatever it is they were talking about when out of nowhere my aunt Bev's disgusting and apparently pedifile boyfriend says, "Lailah, turn around and do that for me!" I got SO disgusted. I called Lailah over to me and told her to put the ball away. - Seriously, what is wrong with that grown man?! I will never ever go anywhere with my children where he is ever again. Oh and ontop of it when I had first gotten there I put Noel in the Moby and I started nursing him. Nobody could even tell until my grandmother asked me to show Noel to her friend and I responded, "Okay but know that he's eating." So then the same guy got up and shouted, "Nobody wants to see no babies eating!" And stormed from the living room into the kitchen area. OHHHH but you want to see my five year olds backside bouncing on a ball?! You sicko!
Then towards the end of the night my 13 yr old cousin had an allergic reaction to peanuts which she apparently didn't know she was allergic to. At the party she started vomiting and then she collapsed to the ground unable to breathe. She was feeling itchy and hot everywhere. Her mother - my other aunt told her to, "Get over it." So after about 15 mins my mom and grandmother convinced my aunt to take my lil cousin to the hospital or else they'd call an ambulance. Soooo, come to find out that my little cousin arrived just on time as her lungs collapsed once they arrived. Luckily, my cousin is now doing fine and she was sent home with an epipen.
Hm... is there anything else on my mind?
My mom got me two Alex and Ani bracelets this year - one with an N on it and one with an L on it for Noel and Lailah. :) It was thoughtful of her. Today we went to the all and I got her a grandmother Alex and Ani bracelet. :)
I'm going to make a completely new post about my Facetime visit with Bennett.
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