But Bennett is spoiled rotten by them. He'll be 3 in April and he's still on a baby bottle. He throws toys, he doesn't even know the concept of 'pick up after yourself'. He yells at his aparents. He even picked up a woven vase that was in the living room and threw it across the room.
He seems happy and generally healthy though I guess. He's loved too as far as I can tell.
We were on the call for about an hour.
She got me an adoption pendant necklace. I don't really know how to feel about it. I want to love it but with my uhm... dislike of adoption as a whole, I guess it's difficult for me to. If it were just the pendant maybe I would love it, but it came along with a little card. On the card it read:
Forever Connected Pendant
All those in the adoption triad are forever connected by the heart. Time, nor distance can alter that infinite connection. Out beautiful Forever Connected Heart pendant is exquisitely crafted by a talented jewelry designer. The sterling heart encompasses and shelters those in the triad... the 2 small 14k gold beads represents the birth family and the adoptive family... the pink pearl the adoptee - all flowing freely together yet independently. A truly special keepsake gift.
I should just feel grateful that they even thought about me at all. I should just feel happy that I even got the Facetime visit at all. But I guess I'm selfish. One of my sons is not with me and it sucks. It's unfair. They have him and I don't. This pendant is lovely, I won't lie. I think it's beautiful and I enjoy the gesture. But all I can see when I look at it is the fact that the pink pearl is not in the middle between the "birthparents" and the aparents. I can only assume that the middle gold ball is the aparents standing in the way of the adoptee and nparents. I can't see it any other way.
(Edit: Add on - Liz also sent me a letter that I feel I should also include here.)
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