Preparing to go back to school

I finally was able to get into my school portal account. I have a couple holds on my account so I won't be able to start school with those there. I need to bring in my W2 form and also a physical examination form as well as my vaccination record to go along with it. Then I should be good to go in that department. I also think I figured out orientation where I don't need to stay overnight. I'm going to call and make sure just in case. My mom was the one who supposedly scheduled for me so I want to check and be sure first and make sure I don't have to pay for anything. I also need to call about the opening weekend too (from what I've been told but don't really know anything about.).
My next concern is books. They're SO EXPENSIVE. Seriously. Just for 3 books it's about $200 just to RENT the books until November. That's INSANE. I have a couple options lined up on what to do about that and I'm hoping one will work out. One is that I'm going to talk to the financial supervisor woman on next Weds to see what I could do about books financially if anything at all. The next is to use my moms foundation to help me afford them. My mom has a foundation where people and children fundraise so they can afford things like books for college and extra-curricular activities. I'm going to need to know about both for future terms anyways.

My biggest worry and concern is that I will be away from Noel for what seems like SO LONG. About 20 hours - give or take - a week. Which feels like forever to me. I'm so nervous about leaving him. What if he misses me? What if he cries the entire time I'm gone. It will BREAK my heart! So bad. It really would. I'm also scared that my mom will just let him cry because she thinks he needs to get over it and suck it up. But he's only a baby. When school starts he will only be 9 months old. He doesn't understand or know anything about emotion control yet and being ignored could really fuck with his brain developmentally and emotionally long term. :(
I have no one else to trust him with though. My dad is less trustworthy than my mom I feel. And I can't afford to pay anyone to watch him. Seriously, we're barely making it from paycheck to paycheck. Scraping by. Which is a huge reason I am going to school and aiming for my Masters. Because I need this future job. I need to be able to make better money to support my family. At that point I will work full time and Justin will be a SAHD. Oh, and then we will get married. :D
I also don't want to end nursing. It's my bonding time with him. It's what we share together. So, I'm going to start pumping frequently. My goal is to have 100oz of liquid gold in the freezer by September. Classes start Sept. 9th.
I think tomorrow I'm going to try to make some lactation cookies and see how that goes.