So. Much. Change! (Hoping it's all for the better!)

Oh. My. Goodness.

So much new is starting. So much hopefully positive new.

• I'm on my way to starting school at Johnson & Wales University next month on the 15th. 
• Justin may getting a new job that will be able to financially support our family.
• The court ordered child support for Lailah to be increased by $400 a month.
• Scott is coming home, supposedly, for good next month.

These things will change our lives. School will set me on track to get my Masters degree and get a psychology degree. I will be able to get a good paying job, my education, and live my dream. If Justin gets this job we will be able to get an apartment, care for the kids, afford holidays and birthdays. We will be good. The child support money will help me put Lailah back into gymnastics and let her try all other activities and sports she may be interested in trying, it will also help with her school supplies, and clothing. Scott coming home for good will hopefully influence Lailah's life in a positive and healthy way. She will finally get to know and have a relationship with her dad, again - hopefully. 

I am excited but nervous and hopeful! I am excited and hopeful but at the same time I am SO nervous. What if things don't turn out as well as I'm hoping? What if the higher pay doesn't help out in the long run because it causes more bills to pay? What if Scott isn't the dad Lailah deserves and needs? What if he hurts her feelings? 

I guess I have the right to be nervous and scared a bit. But at the same time I also have the right to be hopeful and excited. All I can do is hope for the best, right?!