Adoption shit

Today I called the adoption agency. Idk what to do yet. My goal is to get a car. If I can't get a car then I feel like I have to do the adoption. I feel I don't have many other choices.
I want to be a good mom.
I miss Lailah, she's with her grandparents. But going to Mark's helps me not be so depressed. He makes me feel happy. I mean, so does Lai. But it's not the same, you know? Mark might not ever accept me, love me, or want me. But for now this is what I can handle.
I can't stand my family. At least with Mark I don't feel as alone as I usually would. With Mark, I'm surviving. Things are tolerable. Yet he will never know that.

A Birth Mother's Choice

• Open adoptions
• letters
• pictures
• visitations
• calls
• pick own family
• can opt out at any time until paperwork final

• fax over proof of pregnancy
• pick a family
• meet
• talk
• housing in SC
• help with housing in SC
• counseling
• get to know family
• advertise for bio dad in last known big city - Providence

Call back Erin