I'm so upset. I don't fucking know anything anymore. I feel so agitated and upset.
I ran out of my meds a couple days ago and Justin didn't go get my meds.
I know that's why I'm feeling these ways.
But that makes me upset because then does that mean this is who I truly am? This fucked up, stressed out, high strung individual?
I'm really upset at Tom right now. He told me we would talk this weekend, we never talk anymore.
And yet... we haven't. He fucking stood me up yesterday because he was having a hard time. Okay? But really... fucking stand me up. Told me to be on fb... I waited til fucking 2 am and he never came. Ignored my fucking calls and my texts. Ignored me. Straight up fucking ignored me.
And then AGAIN today. One of his other friends was crying and having a panic attack... fucking told me to meet him on fb, sent me literally two little messages about what he ate and asked how my day was and that's it... fucking just gone. Just blew me off. Ignored my texts. Then told me a friend of his was having a panic attack and he was calming them down. Cool, glad to know that you don't fucking care about me though. Glad I'm fucking last on your list.
I can't even fucking deal. I feel like just fucking destroying our entire friendship. I'm so tired of this. I'm tired of hanging on by a god damn thread.
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