Feeling sentences - adoption related.

I don't know exactly where to start but I'm going to just pick up whatever comes first to my mind.
Probably a lot of negative emotions tonight.

I feel sad because I don't have my son with me.
I feel angry because I feel everyone lied to me about what adoption is.
I feel disappointed that the others who pushed me towards adoption didn't know much about it themselves.
I feel mad that I was lied to by Bennett's Amom.
I feel betrayed because she lied to me.
I feel sad because sometimes I miss my own mom even though I have her in my life.
I feel sad because I miss my child.
I feel frustrated that Justin seems to have 'shut' his head off.
I feel annoyed at myself for how I've been short sometimes with Lailah.
I feel scared to be having this baby.
I feel scared that Bennett won't want to know me.
I feel petrified that a reunion would be triggering and too difficult.
I feel petrified that I might closeup and not be able to handle reuniting.
I feel guilty because I felt that I would lose everything and in turn he would have nothing and he deserved better than me.
I feel guilty that I let everyone get in my head and let them convince me I couldn't keep my baby.
I feel afraid that Bennett will hate me and never forgive me.
I feel sad that he doesn't know how much I love him.
I feel sad that I can't kiss him everyday.
I feel sad that Lailah and him won't grow up knowing each other.
I feel scared that even though I'm told he's cared for and happy that I truly have no idea.
I feel sad that my mom is like an adoption agency for dogs - gets them knocked up then sells their babies for profit.
Blah - I guess I wandered off and away from here, unable to do anymore feelings for tonight.
Shower and bed for me.