What does that even mean?

Today I am not feeling well emotionally when I think of adoption.
I know - well, don't think of adoption.
But it's really not that easy... I feel adoption is a HUGE piece of who I am.
Adoption has become me.
I don't even think I could have avoided it.
How can someone see all the negative and bad in adoption and be happy about it and feel good about it?
How do others not see how wrong it all is? How do they not see that it's not about finding homes for children who need it - it's about finding womb-fresh babies for infertile couples who have money to give greedy agencies.
It really irks me the long term emotional effects and self esteem effects it has on women who have placed. They say things like, "It's the hardest thing to do - to give your child the best chances at life that they deserve."
What does that even mean?! Does that mean that your child didn't deserve their mother? Does it mean that struggling expectant mothers don't deserve their child? Does it mean that mothers who get state help or can't provide as much wealth to their child deprive them at chances in life? Does it mean that mothers who choose to parent their childs' child won't grow/ can't grow up to be successful? What exactly does mean? Can anyone explain this to me?
Does it mean that since I am not currently working and that I have a 5 year old to care for that I do not deserve this child I am creating inside of me and that a wealthy child deserves my child more? Does it mean that my child will be unhappy with me if I choose to parent?
It's all so strange though because my daughter is happy and healthy. She is content with the things she has and she always wants to help others who have less than she does, and we aren't even rich!
And you know what else is strange? I haven't received one picture or one video of Bennett that shows that he is provided with more than I've provided Lailah with or that he is better taken care of than I have taken care of Lailah. He is living a different life, certainly. But a better one? I don't think so.